<3 Eric Kripke! Why? Because in the first 5-15 minutes of the season Premier, we have:
1) Dean coming back from the dead. FUCK YEAH!!!
2) Dean lifting up his shirt in front of the mirror to reveal his INCREDIBLY hot torso. ^_~
3) Dean almost gets killed by Bobby who thinks he's a shapeshifter, and then splashes Dean in the face with holy water just to double check. Which was then followed by a very touching moment hugging and Bobby telling Dean that is wasn't just tough for Sammy to have to let Dean go.
4) We are all grateful to the fact that Sam won the battle of not burning Dean's body, but instead burying him, So Thank you Sammy <3
5) Sam had a girl in his room... which in itself is just hilarious, amazing, and awkward at the same time.
6) Sam almost kills Dean but then when he realizes that he is actually his brother... THEY FUCKING HUG BITCHES!!!!! It was fucking amazing and it made me smile a lot. <3<3<3
7)The fact that the Metallicar is still there (Yay Sammy for not getting rid of it) and the quote: "Dean: (points to an iPod in his car)What in the hell is that? I told you to take care of her, not to douche her up."
AND THE REST OF THE EPISODE:
8) Katie Cassidy is no longer Ruby... makes me sad... the new girl isn't even blond. I was pissed.
9) Dean was saved by an Angel:
"Dean: Why would an angel rescue me from Hell?
Castiel: Good things do happen, Dean.
Dean: Not in my experience. Why did you do it?
Castiel: Because God commanded it. Because we have work for you."
and last but not least:
10) See Number 6 ... because really that's the most amazing thing EVER!!! THEY FUCKING HUGGED!!! DO YOU KNOW HOW AMAZING THAT IS?!?! KRIPKE LET THEM HUG!!!

I say it was a pretty good day... just because it was the season premier of my FAVORITEST SHOW!!! YAY!!!

Okie, so I think I've had THE best day that I have had all week, 'cause I got to hang out with my brother ^_^.

We went to wal-mart to get my mom's b-day present, then to the Dollar tree to pick up a few more things, to the bank, to Gamestop, the gas station ( Where DJ bought me a M&M ice cream) and then he told me how to get to his house ('cause I was driving him home from Wayne's picnic) WE got to his house, after me telling him about the past 2 weeks, and played Rock Band.

Deej sang to Flyleaf, in the high pitched voice and everything, and I on guitar. And personally he sounded a little better singing a womans song than he did a mans :D. I laughed my ass off. And I found out that I suck at drums ( Go figure). My brother said that whenever he plays this game with someone new he always makes them sing... so unfortunately I had to sing, although it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. 'Cause I kicked ass at singing "Enter Sandman by Metallica" and "Black Hole Sun by Soundgarden" ... but not so good at Flyleaf >>.

Then after 2 or 3 hours we got bored of that and sat around talking and watching DJ "beat up" his cat, whom is the cutest (giant) ball of spotted cow like fur ever, haha. Then we got to playing Mario-go-kart on the Wii. He kicked my ass... but it's ok 'cause I enjoyed spending time with him ^_^.

Except now I want Rock band for my house :-/

It occured to me that I havent really wrote in a while... in fact i havent written since june. Wow.

Let's what's new?

Cross Country. I finished the meet on Wednesday... i was very proud of myself because 1 Completed it, and 2 I proved to my doctor that i can too run. He told me that running is the wirst thing I can do for my knee, but the odd thing is my knee doesnt hurt, it's just the rest of my leg. ><

Netters got me to join Eagles. I must admit... i had a lot of fun when I went there on monday. The music is extememly fun.

I have a project due in Shakespeare for tuesday. I have to read 13 chapters of Shakespeare ALIVE! Im on chapter 3. >> It doesnt help that i have to write journal summeries after each chapter either. But as I told a friend I will finish the damn book... even if i have to stay up until 5Am on tuesday to do it.

I cant remember anything else that i was gonna say... so maybe I will think of something else later and write again.

SUPERNATURAL SEASON 3 OCTOBER 4!! DEAN'S IN A WHITE TANK TOP!!!!

::Looks up:: Title rings true.

first point of business: Supernatural!
-SAMMY IS ALIVE!!!!! hAHAHAHAHAHAH BITCHES!!!!!
-DEAN SOLD HIS SOUL FOR SAMMY!!! WHICH MEANS THERE HAS TO BE A THIRD SEASON!!! :D
-BOBBY!!! I <3 BOBBY!!!
-JOHN CAME BACK!!! Given he was a ghost but still. It made me incredibly happy.
-It look as though Dean had a mountain dew in front of him when Bobby brought in the food that looked to be KFC!
-SAMMY IS ALIVE!
-The yellow eyed demon got shot the fuck down by Dean!
-There was a moment where John, Sam, and Dean looked at each other for that split second and thought everything would be ok.
-Bobby points out the obcious by saying the Winchester men are willing to give their lives for each other. ^_^
-!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I FUCKING LOVE THE SUPERNATURAL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

second point of business: HERSHEY PARK!!
- It was a blast
- Wahconah kicked high school ass.
- WE came in first!
- WEnt to the park and went on 5 rides, got dizzy on the first one, whiplash and a headache on the second, headache, whiplash and waited in line for an hour on the third ride, fourth one I will never go on again, and the fifth one was a blast and I laughed my ass off ^_^
- I got chocolate.
- i sat on the bus for hours on end.
- THE FOOD WE HAD WAS AWESOME!!!!!
- And now... I'm extremely tired.
- not to mention that I woke up at 6:26 on friday morning, and i was supposed to be at school by 6:30... and me and my mother made it there in four minutes. It sucked. ::nods::

Third point of business: ... actually i think that was it... so I shall leave you with 2 quotes. Guys should never say these to a girl.
- "Baby, you got so many curves you make a car crash!"
- "You must be a doughnut, baby, 'cause you make my jelly roll"
Quotes from the book Middlesex by Jeffrey Eugenides.
-It's an extremely good book about a person name Calliope Stephanides, who was born twice, once as a girl, and once as a boy, goes by the name Cal though.
- The clarinet serenade... it entertaining.
- This persons family history is confusing on some level, but you should be able to get the jist of it when she summarizes the previes hundred some odd pages at the beginning of a section.
- Read the book and you will find out what I'm talking about.
- I give it two thumbs up and a crap load of gold stars!!!

You Are a Carnation

You are down to earth and grounded. You tend to be more traditional than trendy. Your confidence gets you through anything. People trust you and are very loyal to you.

1) flower... ^_^ (picture the skunk from bambi... <--- flower)

You Are 52% A Child of the 90s

Ah yes, the 90s! You remember them - and they were totally phat. Or totally dope. Or totally da bomb.

2) me a child from the 90's... oh how weird.

You Are 40% A Child of the 80s

Your 80s experience was totally bogus. Maybe you were late to the party?

3) aha... i remember some of the stuff from the 80's... odd thing i was born in 1990. Go me.

You Are Agnostic

God? Religion? Maybe... you're just not sure. You're still figuring out your spiritual path... or figuring out you really don't care. You believe that no one really can know the true story about religion or God. So you might as well relax a little. You'll go crazy trying make sense of it all.

4) ... ::shrugs::

You Are the Super Ego

While some people may think first and act later... you often don't act at all. You rather be safe than sorry, and you take ethics pretty seriously. Like everyone, you have some pretty crazy desires. But unlike everyone, you restrain yourself. You have high standards for your own behavior. And you happily exceed them.

5) I guess it's a good thing that I can restrain myself... for the time being, until I'm alone... then all hell breaks loose.

You are a PC

You're practical, thrifty, and able to do almost anything. Appearances and trends aren't important to you. You just like to get the job done.

6)You know taking this quiz brings me back to the commercial where the PC guy and the Mac guy are talking... and I always feel really bad for the PC guy... >.> And that Mac guy is hot!

Your Hippie Chick Name Is:

Clover

7) "guys if you ever try to pick a girl up in a bar... dont call her chick." -MR. Pickard.

You Are "Dizzy and Giddy"

8) I believe it

If You Were Born in 2893...

Your Name Would Be: Enm Yuu And You Would Be: A Prophet

9) Oh boy a prophet

You Are 64% Bipolar

You're more than moody - you're a bit unstable. If your mood swings are effecting your life, you may need to seek help.

10) Has that percentage risen?

And now for some English tounge twisters:
-How much blood can a blue bird bleed if a blue bird bled blue blood?
-Hot coffee from a proper copper coffee pot

"[The Spartans hold up their shields as a flurry of Persian arrows blot out the sun. Suddenly, Astinos begins laughing]
Stelios: What the hell are you laughing at?
Astinos: You had to say it! "We'll fight in the shade!"
[Other Spartans laugh with him]"
-Movie 300...

Ok... so the earth didnt shake, and nobody went silent... and there was no loud boom... but it made for a good title non?

Anyways...

Yeah... first period today we had what we all thought was a normal fire drill... swo we all head outside and go to our designated places, mind you this takes place for about roughly 2 hours. I'm hoping it would rain.. but it didnt... then they finally decided to move us over to the middle school and then sent us home... but i didnt feel like taking the bus... so i walked.

The pathetic part... was that I had fun. I mean yeah "bomb threat" but still I was outside. and although I dont seem like a nature person... I love being out doors, some of the time.

Then Jared came over and we talked about how pissed we would be if the school burst into flames and blew up... only because his skate board was in there, and those instruments that we use in band are friggin' expensive. Then on our way to the middle school, me and Chaz descussed wether or not Jack (titanic) Really had to die in the fucking water.
"Me: THey could have shared the fucking door, but was being a bitch and was being selfish.
Chaz: but if they shared the door would have tipped.
Me: NOT IF THEY WERE ON TOP OF EACH OTHER! THEY'VE DONE IT BEFORE!"
So I'm not really sure who won... but serisouly if she wasn't being a selfish bitch... Jack would still be alive!

>.>

And that was pretty much the extent of my day... I had fun. ^_^

The fact that i hurt someone who was close to me... is something i never wanted to do. And I am sorry that i hurt you... I never meant to. I should have have stopped him sooner... i tried to those randoms "NO!'s" were me... I should never have continued on with the conversation, especially at the points where i knew i went to far.

I'm sorry... for everything. For all the stuff that was said, even if i wasnt the one who said it, i should have stopped it. Im sorry, for not stopping it, for continuing the conversation after he left, and sorry that I made a close friend worried about me.

There is not enough times that I could say I'm sorry, for you to fully understand how sorry I truly am. I never meant to be like her, I never meant for you to worry. I'm sorry about everything, i should never have let it go on.

Dean's sorry too, we never meant to go that far. God I feel so terrible doing all that. I dont know why I did. I can't explain it. I wish I could... but I don't know why I did it. I'm sorry for bringing your personal life in it.

God, I dont know why you aren't mad at me. I mean I deserve it. Fuck, I deserve to get hit... why is it that I can hurt someone as nice as you. I don't have the right to treat you like I did. I'm sorry.

I don't know what else to say besides I'm sorry. I do know that I will never do it ever again.

So once again, to the person I hurt the most, I am so sorry.

::blinks:: actually that title makes sense... 'cause im drinking orange soda. And everything is alright. My grandma doing better... although she's still a little loopy. I went ti the hospital to visit her, ended up with a neat pair rubber gloves ^_^, one's blue the other is white b^^d. So my vacation is becoming more... vacation-y... for the lack of a better word.

I cleaned my house today... 'cause i was extremly bored. Well that and i asked my mother that if i cleaned the house would i get money, her reply was yes... so i cleaned. Some reason i found it relaxing >_>.

and another plus for my day... is only -13 more days till my birthday. :D Go me.



AHAHA... the princess' just made a face at you. ^_^

Alright... my day started off fine, woke up, went to school... same as usual. And then as im walking to my house... a police car drives by me. My first reaction:
"Oh dont go to our house, please do not go to our house."
So i picked up my pace despite my plea and i walk down my street, right in front my house. I see a police car, at our next door nieghbors, my reaction:
"oh thank god."
Mean, yes, but at that point i didnt care, i was just happy to see the officer not at my house... but then, as i get closer to my house, the officer turns away from my nieghbors, and goes to ours. Cue me:
"Oh shit."
So none the less i thought the worst, and it didnt help that the officer just walked into my house without knocking, and that threw my worrying into overdrive. 'Cause my gamma is home alone, so i figure that she fell... or had another moment of complete insanity. SO I walk in, and i see my brother coming down the stairs and i asked him why the police where here. He made a weird face and weird sounds, and im trying to figure out what they mean. So then i go up stairs, and there are two officers in my gammas room, and after a while my brother comes back up and walks into the room as well. So then i walked in after a while as well... and my gamma looks at me and goes... and this is the whole conversation between us:
"What are you doing home?" (quiet and confused voice from my gamma)
Me: "schools out."
Her: "why?"
Me: "'Cause it's the time that school let's out. And it's vacation now."
Her: ::pauses:: Oh.... That's right" "
Apparently when my brother first walked into her room she wasnt all the lucid... and he had to call the cops and ambulance... so then they had to get her in a chair stretcher, and that took a while, 'cause she's stubborn. and now she is at the hospital and no body knows whats wrong... so none the less, im sitting here answering phone calls from my family asking how she is and i have no freaking clue.
And in top of that... when they took her out on the stretcher and were loading her into the ambulance, they covered her in a white blanket... and i mean covered, you know like when somebody dies and they cover them... oh yeah. None the less that made me and my brother upset.
And if you dont know me and my brother... let me tell you, we are almost exactly the same when it somes to emotions. We hate showing them, but we can always tell when one is upset, and let me tell you he was really upset, he's normally the stronger of both of us, and he said that i was holding it together better. we hate it when a family memeber is hurt, and we hate it when we dont know what is causing it.
I think the worst thing for my brother was that our gamma called him a different name than his actual one... and trust me i know how it feels to be called another name that's not you... especially by a loved one.

So yeah none the less... my vacation started off with a big freakin' bang... and not a good one either. -_-

1. My rejected crayon color. .... huh.

You are

2. Oh well that's nifty.

Your Hidden Talent

3. wow im more adult than i thought. >_>. You Are 58% Grown Up, 42% Kid 4.I'm a... chihuahua... ::blinks:: WTF?! You Are a Chihuahua Puppy Small, high strung, and loyal. You do best in the city with a adults - young kids could crush you! What Breed of Puppy Are You?

Ok so... Epic movie... is so stupid its hilarious. I couldnt stop laughing. But i also like stupid things like that so... `_`. It was weird... it's definatley a movie that I would want to buy when it comes out on DVD, just to cheer me up when im upset.

And besides that... here are some quizzes... just 'cause im bored.

1. A porcupine?

You Were a Porcupine

You have created your own path in life, and you encourage others to do the same. Even as life progresses, you always maintain a sense of wonder and innocence.

2. Oh... well then.

What Your Dreams Mean...

Your dreams seem to show that you're a bit disturbed... but nothing serious. You may have a problem you're trying to work out in your sleep. Your dreams tend to reflect your insecurities. You have a very vivid imagination and a rich creative mind.

3.only 47%?

You Are 47% Borderline

You have some symptoms of borderline personality disorder. If you feel like you're more than a little dramatic, you may want to investigate further.

::looks at title:: It was the first thing that came to mind ::shrugs::

But besides that ... I'm stalling from doing my homework... technically i've been avoiding it all weekend, and I should probably stop doing that. >_> But at last it will never happen.

'cause honestly who the hell wants to do history homework, and english, and study for a test when you can watch movies/clean/talk to people online. `_` Except that i would do the homework, if only my thoughts would stop wondering off on me at any given moment and let me concentrate.

Yesterday me, my mother, and my sister went to the holyoke mall, However we had to go up to my fathers place to get my sisters wallet, I think my mother had to go to her happy place >_>. and then we had to go the long way 'cause there was a road block which meant we had to spend more time in washington, which meant that i went all dark and broody like our one and only Sam Winchester. ^^d. Oh yeah, my thoughts went off to the angsty part of my mind, and i was just brooding until we reached chester or someplace like that.

And then it hit me... my fathers brithday As WEll as my other sisters birthday is coming up... and then when it's my sisters birthday I only have a month until it's mine ^_^.

Ok well this entry was just full of rambles that didnt really have connections to each other... so im gonna go now and try yet again to do my homework. b^^d

Stupid Power Outages and turning the whole entire house into pure darkness... actually, I didnt mind it all that much ^^d. I kept running into walls, my bed, walls, ... even more walls, the door to my room... and a lamp. >_>. But i do that anyways :D.

I went to the movies and saw Happy Feet. ^_^. It was cute... and as my sister said, it was sad too. i told her that they couldnt just have a happy movie they have to throw the angst in it. Its not a movie i would pay to buy for my home though. ::shrugs:: But it had cute little penguins in it, so you should go to the movies and see it.

Ok ... that was pretty much it... so ... g'bye ::waves::

It's not fair... look at my icon for this entry... How come Dean get's to sleep and i can't. It's one somethign in the FREAKIN' MORNING! and i still cant get to sleep. And I have school tomorr-... no i have school in like less than 5 hours! GAH!

::sighs:: I have been trying to get to sleep since 11... i think... could be 10:30-11... ::shrugs:: `_`

Im bored... I cant sleep... I will definately be falling asleep tomorrow in some classes... possibly lunch... I'm gonna have to drink a lot of coffee/tea/cappiccino... i dont think that's how you spell but i couldnt care less at the moment.

I still have yet to win at Spider... no... wait... I won once... out of like 106 tries >_>. That's depressing.

Alright ... so im either gonna go play Spider again, or work on a story, or try to go to sleep... or all three OR I'll clean my room some more and or read. ::shrugs:: G'night/G'morning all.

Damn I'm tired... ::walks off like a sleep deprived person::

Oh the magical month of December... why it's magical i have no clue...>_>

The month of giving and recieving... sort of... It's the month where all the crazy people go out and buy gifts for family and friends... the only thing that makes every single month of december difficult for me ... is the money... i have no... zip, squat, i have no money what so ever to my name. Which means I have to bum money off my mother yet again.

That and nobody has told me what they wanted... so I'm winging it. >_>. hopefully they will like what i get them...

On the upside of this month... yes I am looking on the broghter side of something... Is this coming saturday. I cant wait. I'm going to a resturant with the person i like... and although my mother and her boyfried are going... i will enjoy it... because i like their company... and i definatley like this persons company as well... ^_^

Ok that pretty much sums up this entry... ::laughs::

Did you know that there is a day for ninjas? Oh yes... it's called the International Creep Like A Ninja Day or The Day of the Ninja... which ever you want. It's on December 5th. So Along side with it's arch rival's Talk like a pirate day... we have two things to celebrate during the year that I will enjoy. ^^,d. It was started by the comedy website called Ninja burger...which had also created the Pirate Pizza. Oh yeah. I find this amusing.

The only thing Wikipedia doesnt tell us is the actual winner of the debate Pirates Vs. Ninjas?

It's almost like the question who would win Astronauts or Cavemen? Me and my friends have been trying to figure this out for a few years now... we cant exactly come up with an answer. My English said the astronauts... only because the cavemen would be diseased and weak... >_>.

::starts to think:: I wonder how one would go and celebrate Day of the Ninja... anybody have a ninja outfit i could borrow for that day? ^_^


::Two thumbs up::

Stupid game... I cant win. I got one suit of cards completed but i cant get the others... -_-... damn card game. I WILL WIN THIS GAME... Someday... maybe... hopefully... just to prove to myself and Dean that I can beat this stupid card game that is on difficult!

And Im stuck on what to write... and i dont think i could add ninjas in again... unless i give one of my characters a younger sibling and have them dress liek one just for the hell of it... >_>. But that wont get me down... oh no. I will accomplish this 50K story... I will... even if I have to pull allnighters for the next four days! I will accomplish it... ::nods:: Oh yes I shall!


.... I couldnt help it I had to out Metatron in here some how. ^_^

I just realized something... I write really pointless entries.

Your Vocabulary Score: D+

Wow, your vocabulary is pretty poor. Maybe crack a book every once and a while!

*Wow that SUCKS!*

Your Expression Number is 5

A total multi-tasker, you have a wide variety of talents. You're very versatile and able to change at a drop of a hat. A free spirit, you crave change and adventure. Clever and quick witted, you can convince anyone of anything. You can do anything you desire... though this sometimes gets you in trouble! Very popular, you're always thinking up new ways to entertain and amuse your friends. Your restless and impatient attitude means you don't stay with projects for long. You tend to be erratic and scattered - it's hard for you to focus. You often find yourself in a state of flux with constantly changing interests.

::stares:: Wow that actually the number i normally pick too.

You Are Bold And Brave

But daring? Not usually? You tend to like to make calculated risks. So while you may not be base jumping any time soon... You are up for whatever's new and (a little) exciting!

Bold and daring ... is that all?

Your Celebrity Baby Name Is...

Jazz Heavenly

If my parents ever named me this I would run away and join the circus.

Your Taste in Music:

80's Rock: Medium Influence Classic Rock: Medium Influence Hair Bands: Medium Influence 90's Pop: Low Influence 80's Alternative: No Influence

^_^ Oh yeah.

You Should Rule Saturn

Saturn is a mysterious planet that can rarely be seen with the naked eye. You are perfect to rule Saturn because like its rings, you don't always follow the rules of nature. And like Saturn, to really be able to understand you, someone delve beyond your appearance. You are not an easy person to befriend. However, once you enter a friendship, you'll be a friend for life. You think slowly but deeply. You only gain great understanding after a situation has past.

I GOT SATURN?! ... ::shrugs:: Cool

You Are 56% Bipolar

You're a bit moody, and at times, your moods can be a bit extreme. It's up to you to decide if you're simply dramatic... or slightly bipolar.

Oh... well... um.

Your Theme Song is Back in Black by AC/DC

"Back in black, I hit the sack, I've been too long, I'm glad to be back" Things sometimes get really crazy for you, and sometimes you have to get away from all the chaos. But each time you stage your comeback, it's even better than the last!

WOOT!!! That's an awesome theme song.

ok and after all that... I still havent figured out what to write for my NaNo. -_-.
... See even they are glaring at me.

Why?

Why is it that even when you think you're over something it comes back and kicks you in the ass?

Why is it when you think you feel better and you go back to the place where you grew up, thinking you would be ok with it, all the pain comes back?

I thought that I would be ok going back to my hometown, seeing everything that my life had represented for so long, and thought everything would be ok. But then all the memories of my grandfather came back. Every where I turned there would be a whole new memory, and I would have to fight back all the sadness because I hate showing my emotions in front of anyone.

My friends have seen me cry, they have been there for me when I needed them, but I realized today that... i dont know... i guess it makes me feel weak.

My grandfather passed away a couple months ago. I thought I would be ok... I wasn't. It hurt so much to pass his home and remember that he's not there anymore.

Maybe that's the reason why I tell my father that i have things planned on the weekends that Im supposed to go up there. I hate not being able to see him, no matter how much he stress' me out, but i cant deal with the fact the my grandfather used to live in that very house. I cant handle the fact that every where I turn, I can see him. God he was such a great grandpa. He really was.

I was asked one time, if i was ever jealous of my cousins they were able to hang out with him a whole helluva lot more the past few years. I said I wasnt... but ... maybe... I was. I miss him not being here, and even though I barely saw him when I did go up there, I knew he was there.

And he's not there anymore.

I didnt even get to go to his burial... because I was at UMASS. I havent been to his grave, and everytime i go past the church that we had his memorial at, I have to fight back all of the pain.

I just wish all this pain would go away. It just seems like everything goes wrong at the same time. And I try to keep together... but I cant. And i take it out on my father by not going up there... but its not his fault.

I just .... miss him so much, and no matter what I cant bring him back. And it feels like there's something missing and i cant find it.

So Why cant it all go away and just leave me alone? Why do i have to feel all this pain at all? I just want it to go away and it wont and i feel like everything about me is crashing and burning.

::wipes away tears:: Why cant i handle this?